[ who knows – 4.26.11 ]

April 27, 2011 § 1 Comment

This is far, far over due. I’m actually writing this on my phone because I doubt I’ll find the energy when I get home from class unfortunately. I ended up having a really awful reaction to my MRI and the contrast dye they inject into you. I’m talking I could barely walk out of the place, was nauseas, and couldn’t move from bed for 3 days. It really messed me up. I’ve only just gotten back to a normal sleeping pattern and am starting to actually feel a bit better. This has unfortunately taken 3 weeks. I’ll be honest, the first week I didn’t even bother I felt so awful and the second I put minimal effort into fixing things because I was just happy to find time to sleep. A lot of drama has also happened in the last few weeks and I’d rather move on from talking about my stupid whateverrthehelliswrongwithme illness.

I no longer work for SPACE, won’t be talking about that either as it is not in my nature to slander people whether they are unprofessional and bordering on rude or not. Things with CollgeFashionista are still going great though! I’m going to be continuing on for the summer internship and I’m hoping to continue on for fall, though I haven’t decided if I’ll be writing an abroad column for DePaul or a regular one for the University of Westminster, me and Amy both agreed it was better to wait and make that decision.

Oh and guess what that means? I got the loan! So now I am officially officially going. I had already been accepted by DePaul, as of yesterday I was accepted by the host program, and getting the loan makes it for sure. The last step school wise is getting accepted as a photography student, but even if they don’t accept me as that I can finish out some core liberal arts classes and it won’t make any difference really (thankfully I have a few left to fall back on just in case! I actually signed up for a history class anyway haha). I’m so excited, I just hope it doesn’t get messed up by it-that-shall-not-be-talked-about-for-the-rest-of-the-post.

I’m really excited to go and live in London, I wish I could intern while I’m over there, like proper intern, but at least I’ll still be writing for College Fashionista! So I can at least bump my resume up nicely with doing some over seas work for the site!

Lots of awesome stuff is happening in the next week and a half! My Dad flies in tomorrow and will be here until Sunday night and I’m so excited. I’m totally a Daddy’s girl and I didn’t get to spend a lot of time with him when I was in Florida because of my car issues, plus, he’s been working so hard he needs a little vacation. I also have a really exciting project for Advanced Photo coming up, its a Photo Book and I’m going to make a post probably next Tuesday really talking about it indepth!

Hope everyone had a lovely holiday, religious or not!


[ broken lenses – 2.20.11 ]

February 20, 2011 Comments Off on [ broken lenses – 2.20.11 ]

This weekend was quite nice. I had off Saturday and Sunday (I’ll go more into that later) and I spent all day today shooting at school with my partner Stacy. We were working with both large format 4×5 cameras. I shot her as Crown Princess/Empress Victoria of Prussia/Germany for my 4×5 portrait and then I shot two ideas of her for my 35mm photos. One is suppose to represent a dramatically lit scene/photo from a movie and I chose this image of Satine from Moulin Rouge. The image at the left is one of the lighting test shots I did on my digital camera to make sure it was coming out the way I wanted it to. In the film shots her shirt is off the shoulders so that you can’t see it and you see a little less of the necklace. I’m pretty pleased with the way they came out seeing as I only had a budget of $15 to work with which meant I couldn’t afford to really do it up. I found these great clip on flowers for $5 for the pair and they made a nice substitute for the big things on the side of her headpiece, and I feel like ribbon works nicely. At the end of the day I could have splurged a little but I need to save all the money I can right now and I’m still pleased with the outcome either way. The fact that the lighting is pretty spot on and Stacy got the downcast questioning look matters a lot more to me for this project than the fact that she’s not covered in diamonds and pearls.

We’re currently working on two projects, technically at least. They’re both due at the same time. The first was the Famous Portrait and the second is called ‘Subject, Person…’. The Satine photo was my first of 2 photos that we’re suppose to shoot. For my second photo I chose the ‘cultural icon’ category with some ‘victim of the paparazzi’ thrown in for a few shots (of which I’m hoping to use for the print itself if they turn out nicely!). My subject for it was Anna Wintour. Stacy has the same hair cut as her and I had gotten this great vintage fur collared cape from my Mom last time I was in Florida so I though it’d work just perfect. I wish we had more chic looking sunglasses or even just bigger ones but I’m really excited about the way these came out! We spent like 15 minutes talking about her beforehand and I feel like she pulled off that stern always busy look very well in all of the photos. This was one of the only ones where she had a hint of a smile, but it’s probably my favourite regardless. I’m so excited to go in and develop the film on Tuesday! I can’t wait to start printing from these photos, I know I’m printing way more than the one required photo of each situation because I want to give Stacy at least one shot for being such a patient partner with all of the camera and light issues we’ve had!

I modeled for her as well. I played the part of Edie Sedgewick for her Famous Portrait, playing off of this photoshoot. I’m modeling for one of her Subject, Person… photos as well. On Tuesday we’re going to do a bit of outside shooting, I’m going to snap some more photos of her as Anna Wintour in the park and she’s going to snap some photos of me as Bonnie (of Bonnie and Clyde), another option was to photograph a real or fictional villain/hero. I’m really curious to see how her other photos turn out as well, she’s getting one of her guy friends to dress up as a mummy and play out the ending scene to one of her favourite horror movies (another one of the topic options was the dramatic conclusion to a movie, play, or book).

I’m enjoying taking photo classes more and more now that it’s starting to get more and more self-directed instead of having such strict boundaries like we did in beginning photography (which is a film class, I took it last Spring). I’m SO excited about my final if my professor approves it and I get enough people willing to model. I’ve wanted to do a modern take on Marie Antoinette for awhile (using stills from the Sophia Coppala movie as my starting ground for scenes). I need 2-3 girls and a guy to really pull it off the right way and I’m struggling to get enough people to agree. The whole idea is to have them dress kinda punkish and really modern-trendy but with the same style hair, as in lots of curls and high hair-do’s. I want to keep the make-up simple as well and very late 1700’s in France, which means a bit of blush on the cheeks and like pink lipsticks (maybe some reds depending on the skin tones of the girls I get to help me!). I’m really excited about hashing out this idea and making it a reality, it’s been an idea of mine for awhile! I’m going to do a lot of digital shots as well so I can have them ready to edit for possible portfolio work.

It’s been crazy at SPACE and it won’t end for awhile, we have so many shows coming up! We have two weeks of double shows as well. I was lucky enough to land this weekend off since I filled in for one of the other interns on Wednesday and Thursday because she was sick. I’ll write more about the craziness when the two weeks of constant shows are over! This entry is long enough anyways.

PS. Chicagoans! If anyone is interested in being a part of my final photo project for the quarter please get in contact with me! I’d really appreciate anyone willing to model.

[ mini – 1.30.11 ]

January 31, 2011 Comments Off on [ mini – 1.30.11 ]

So I did end up cutting my bangs back straight. I had a little bit of an issue though. I was cutting them and I sneezed and ended up slicing my nose open. This is why they look a bit wonky. After I sliced my nose open I was much too freaked out to finishing cutting them, thankfully I was most of the way done and am only missing a small amount of cutting on the right side of my face and some cleaning up in the middle. The fact that I was using a razor also resulted in them being a bit shorter than I would have liked, but I don’t think the shortness ended up being a bad thing! Just a new take on my regular old straight bangs. What I’ve taken out of this is… I need to invest in sheers and while I’ve layered my hair with a razor before, I will never attempt to do bangs with one again, ever, I just feel lucky I didn’t really do some damage to my nose or need stitches or have to go to the hospital.

Pardon how exhausted and tired I look in that photo. I hadn’t had a proper more than a few hours of rest or sleep in like 15 days at that point, and it’s definitely showing on my face here.

It was really nice to finally have a proper day off today. I normally plan it so I have either Saturday or Sunday off and Monday as a homework day (as well as the day I do my CollegeFashionista article). Today was spent sleeping in, walking Pickles (one of several nicknames Rupert will answer to), cleaning up my living room, and watching Inception.

I wasn’t very impressed with Inception but I wouldn’t complain about watching it again. I just have a very neutral opinion on it. I didn’t watch it by choice though, and that could have effected it. I had to watch it and then write up answers for 4 questions in response to it for my Film Philosophy class.

I also finally cleaned up a bit, I haven’t had the energy or the time to really properly clean my apartment since I started school since I’ve been so busy (not to mention dizzy). It’s so nice to have the pile of coats and sweaters off of my kitchen table and properly hung back up in the living room again. I also finally cleaned my bathroom, the floors were in dire need of scrubbing, so much that I assure you I don’t mind using up precious time of my only real day off in much too long to do so. Tomorrow I’m hoping to finish cleaning up once I finish my article and my homework. Tomorrow also means back to being busy! I have a load of homework I probably should have started on today (at least I did my Film Philosophy stuff!) but I know I’ll have time tomorrow and I felt I had deserved the relaxation much too much.

On top of Intro to PR and French homework I have to go to the Study Abroad department again because I’m still having issues with it not saving or submitting a lot of my information! I’m completely done with my application but I can’t submit it because nothing is saving! Very frustrating I assure you. At least it’s a distraction from figuring out where the hell I’m going to get $7,600 from.

Working at SPACE can be a little frustrating, but I know that’s just because I’m in a constant battle of needing to work on being more patient with people. I explained something 3 times to another intern and they still did it wrong (and they just kept standing around… doing nothing instead of ya know, taking a little initiative?) but that’s part of working in any industry, really it’s just part of being an adult and I really need to work on it. I need to be more patient or I know it’s not going to do me any good in the future when I actually am getting paid to work and need to keep a job for more than 3-6 months.

I have inserted the photo of vodka here just because it fit no where else and I thought it would be a little funny to insert it when talking about being a responsible adult, you know totally breaking down those typical college kid barriers, which I definitely feel like I do. I don’t serial date, I’m not out getting schwasted and fucking around on school and taking my drinking more seriously than my homework. I know way too many people who haven’t lived up to the potential I know they have because they just don’t care enough to actually apply themselves, and it’s really sad. I avoid this situation at all costs, but in return at least with myself I probably try and do too much at once. Actually, I know I try and do too much at once, and right now my body and health are paying for it. My fingers are crossed that it will be worth it in the end.

Anyways, back on topic. I had to write an on-the-fly article for CollegeFashionista this week because me and Amy agreed that the backgrounds of my last article and this one were too similar. Instead I took another new photo and will be writing my typical new article next week and the article I had originally written to go up tomorrow (or I suppose today by the time I finish writing this entry seeing as it’s 11:57) will be ‘submitted’ on the 7th to go live the 14th. It actually worked out for the best since my flight from Florida next weekend doesn’t land until 11am and I would have sort of been beyond pushed for time and running around like a chicken without it’s head trying to figure out where I was going to get an article from. Now I won’t have to worry about writing the article within like 4 hours of time after I’m back or writing it before I leave since I’ll already have it done. The new article going up definitely isn’t as good, but it’s still not disappointing! Just very… snowy?

Now that I have straight bangs back I’m itching to get back to having platinum hair… having the ombre was a nice change for a 2-3 months but come mid/late-February when I get my hair done next, I think I’m going to make my way back to platinum. I just feel like if I’m going to be blonde, I need to go all out. This nice little break for it has restored my passion for the platinum! I was going to go red come June/July but now that all hinges on if I go to England or not. I may actually keep this ombre until I know whether or not I’m going overseas or not. I love it but honestly half of the point was to darken my hair a little to give it a better base to go red in case I was going overseas, so when I was over in England I wouldn’t have to worry so much or spend money on getting my hair done so often (I can tone my own hair if it’s red, and I really only need my roots done once every 2.5/3 months instead of every 4-6 weeks when I’m platinum). So in all likelihood I’ll keep the ombre until mid-March when I hopefully get an answer about study abroad (cross your fingers for me everyone, please, there aren’t words strong enough to describe how badly I want to get accepted and go…)

Wow, this entry has gone on much longer than I originally anticipated for it to go on. I think it’s the relaxed feeling of the day and having been able to sleep in rubbing off on me. Now it’s actually legitimately almost February and it’s still blowing my mind how fast this year has gone. Is everyone keeping up with their resolutions? I didn’t make any this year because I never keep them, but I haven’t even started in on most of my goals yet and it’s frustrating! I’ve only started on the one to get accepted into Study Abroad haha. Hope everyone had a lovely week!

[ overcast – 1.26.11 ]

January 26, 2011 Comments Off on [ overcast – 1.26.11 ]

It is 4:36 on an overcast, kinda gross though slightly warmer than it has been, Wednesday afternoon. The last Wednesday afternoon of the first month of 2011. It seems crazy to me that in 2 months I will be 1 class short of being a junior in college. This is only a big thing because it puts me a full quarter ahead of schedule since I’m taking 5 classes in spring as well. If all keeps up at this pace I’ll graduate on time in 4 years, even though I’m 5ish classes over a full 4 year load. I’m honestly so proud of myself.

Tuesday was a waste of time, I didn’t get anything reprinted that I should have and I couldn’t really participate in Public Relations because I felt like I was just going to fall over and we were doing some seminar style exercises that required moving about the room. I also left Film Philosophy early today because we were watching Inception and I just got so dizzy I couldn’t take it any more. I’m going to try watching it at home and help that not watching it on a theater size screen with surround sound will help (ie – watching it on my laptop instead). I wish I could take my medicine for it but it just knocks me out way too much. Fact of the matter is it’s going to keep popping up like this with the amount of stress I’m under and unfortunately either until my Mom (hopefully, fingers crossed) gets me on her insurance, or I acquire like $800 to get a new MRI referral AND the MRI, I’m kinda shit out of luck with doing anything to make it better besides just pushing through it, which has a tendency to make it worse sometimes. Oh well, I know it could be way worse, it’s just a real inconvenience when 2 of my classes (ie – watching movies and being in the darkroom) are really negatively affected by it.

I’m in a bit of a rut right now with my weekly CollegeFashoinista article, they asked me to reshoot and write a new article to run the one I had originally written for this week in a few weeks time and I just haven’t had the time. Thankfully I have that break between French and Photo tomorrow and I’m crossing my fingers that somewhere in that hour of free time I have I find someone (and the weather cooperates with outside photos!). Besides that I got a 10/11 on my first review with the head of the site (Amy) and my internship class professor (Bro. Mark) and I’m super excited about it! He told me that she said some really nice things and said I was a great and dedicated intern and it just absolutely made my day on Monday to find that out. It certainly cheered me up after finding out it’s going to cos me $7,600 extra outside of tuition and food for Fall if I get accepted for the London study abroad. I want to do it so badly but right now I don’t see a feasible way for me to be able to afford it. Hopefully if I get accepted I win some scholarships and figure out some way to pay for it by July.

Everything at SPACE has been going really well. There’s really not much to talk about at the moment. I did set up a blog for the interns to use and write (sort of like how I do here) about what it’s like to work there and in the industry and write some articles about upcoming shows and events we’re putting on to hopefully bring in some of the younger demographic to the venue. I’ve already sort of set into a typical lull with the way working at the venue goes, which I guess has it’s pluses and minuses. Either way I still value the experience a lot.

I’m gonna end out this post with asking everyone what they think I should do with my bangs! Plus I need to start writing a little bit more about things that people feel they should respond to, ya know promotion through people actually wanting to comment back or whatever. Either way….

Bring them back? Yes? No? Straight? Side? Opinions please!

[ how is it almost february – 1.18.11]

January 18, 2011 Comments Off on [ how is it almost february – 1.18.11]

I really can’t believe that it’s almost February. It’s so crazy that Columbia and some other schools either just started or aren’t starting until next week and I’m already half way through my third week of classes! This quarter is going by so fast, much faster than I appreciate because I feel as if I haven’t learned enough to be this far into the quarter. I mean if you think about it I’m only 2 weeks from midterms! I don’t want this quarter or next quarter to go by too quickly. I’m so content in my internships and 4/5 of my classes. French may be hard and a struggle for me but at least I have a good, understandable teacher. I’ve really lucked out that all but one of my teachers are quite good and I won’t go into the other as it is not in my nature to simply talk about people to complain about them when they’ve done nothing on purpose or maliciously.

I’m really excited about printing my first real project for Intermediate Photography. Brock was such a big help offering to model for me and letting me drag him around my apartment while my dog tried to hump him between photos. We had a really nice night of it, despite some drama with light bulbs exploding and batteries dying that sent us running to Target 20 minutes before it closed. He got me to watch It’s Always Sunny in Philadelphia for the first time and I definitely get why all of my friends love it so much now!

Working at SPACE has been incredible. If anything it’s the environment that totally makes it. The rest of the staff is great and friendly and has actually shown interest in getting to know who I am and is always helpful in explaining things thoroughly and completely the first time around instead of leaving me to run around like a chicken with my head cut off! Which is a problem I’ve had before with short lived or perspective internships so I greatly appreciate them actually doing what you should with an intern: teaching me useful things and how you want things done at/for your company. It really just makes me thing I’ve made the right choice about what I want to do with my life. Speaking of internships, I’m so excited about my next CollegeFashionista article (the one from this week about legwarmers was actually another one of SPACE’s interns Monica), it features an absolutely gorgeous girl in a very pretty coat.

I hope everyone has had a lovely January! I’m going to go settle down with a nice drink, my book, and the perfect play list and tuck in for the rest of the night since I don’t have to be up until noon on Wednesdays. Stay stylist loves!

[full schedule – 1.9.2011]

January 9, 2011 Comments Off on [full schedule – 1.9.2011]

It’s that time of year again. I’m back to the grind of school and stressing about it. With 5 classes, an internship, and then everything else I do it certainly doesn’t leave me a lot of free time, or for that matter study time! Now while I lucked out with most of my classes, I know French is going to be a struggle. I’ve never been very good at retaining languages. I always just sort of remember bits and pieces, I’m much better at picking up the gist of something when someone else is saying it than ever trying to repeat something or say it myself! I did pull off a B last quarter, which was a miracle in itself, and really, it’s one of those classes where (although I’d love to get an A or B in it) as long as I pass I’ll be satisfied.

I’m much more excited about my other classes! My Public Relations class is going to be a breeze, I already tentatively have all of the personal work I’ll have to do for our ‘personal promotion’ project done and our group project should go nicely, I trust at least 2 of the other members of my 4 person group to be timely and responsible about things. I’m also taking a Film Philosophy class, which is probably the class I’m most excited about! We get to watch a slew of awesome movies, about half of which I’ve seen, including Inception, Memento, and Moon. My other classes are pretty typical. Intermediate photo will focus around shooting with large format cameras and 35mm B&W film. Sadly all of DePaul’s medium format cameras (which is suppose to be covered in this class as well) are defunct and they’re simply too expensive for the college to purchase a slew of new ones, so we’re getting a crash course in them hopefully on Monday with my professor’s personal medium format camera. My first round of developing film (from over the summer and my England trip, as well as a few of our first snow here) all came out lovely! I didn’t loose a single photo! I was pretty excited because I hadn’t developed anything in about 7 months so I was really afraid I might make a few mistakes the first time. My last and final class is my Arts Internship class, I’m actually sort of separated from the group because I’m the first student the teacher has had in 5 years who is doing a commercial internship, not a non-profit (such as working for a gallery or museum) so he’s sort of trying to figure out how to work the class for people like me who go into an arts field that is commercially based. It’s… been interesting. The best part is he’s letting me help chose the articles I’ll write papers from! It’s quite exciting.

Now on to the more exciting stuff! Internships! The CollegeFashionista.com writing one is turning out to be a bit harder than I expected. Anyone who knows anyone about DePaul knows that… well fashion decency is even hard to find. Heck, I was just glad to find a girl who was well put together and hadn’t ruined her outfit with Uggs or yoga pants! While I’m always on the look-out for students who are true Fashionistas/os, I know it’s hard to really step out of the box when it’s only 15 degrees out so I’ve been focusing on at least finding people who are following a trend I can write my weekly advice about. (wink wink nudge nudge to those students who are fashion forward, find me! I will gladly take your photo! ) Even I must admit my next two articles are a tad boring unless I can find someone awesome tomorrow when I go wander around the Loop in the morning. I’m still really glad to be writing for them and really looking forward to some warmer weather when I know it’ll be easier to find people dressed nicer out and about and outside (we’re suppose to avoid inside photos as much as possible).

SPACE is, well, amazing. Last night was my first night and I had an absolute blast! I’m doing a lot of different stuff there. Last night I  wrote up the seating charts for the section of the venue where you can buy reserved table seating, took some photos of the venue and of the acts, and wrote my first two press release! I definitely underestimated how hard a press release is to write. You would think one little paragraph about each artist would be a lot easier than it actually is. Especially with the genres we play where a lot of people were in other bands who weren’t bands during the technology age (ie – one person’ previous act… well I could only find one article from 1992 about them! That was it!) and others who are obscure and their pull aren’t really people who ya know have myspace and facebook and follow blogs. It’s definitely a new experience for me working in a what I will refer to as a ‘non-pop’ venue (ie – no mainstream or indie rock, it’s all like folk/americana/soul etc etc) especially when it comes to finding enough good information for a press release.

The biggest downside about working at SPAE is probably the limited amount of places I’m allowed to take photos from. It’s pretty much just in the sound booth, next to the bar if I can get a clear shot, or from the reserved table directly in front of the sound booth (if it’s empty). This kinda squashes a lot of good angles and variety in my photos, as well as the dreaded over the crowd shot is pretty much unavoidable. I didn’t actually know I was going to be taking photos, so next time I’ll make sure to be more prepared and have my zoom lens with me to hopefully help with the limited options I have a bit.

Either way I’m really excited about everything I’m doing this quarter! It’s sure to be some great resume building stuff and some just downright great opportunities!

I’m going to be a brat and not post any photos of myself this week because I haven’t had any time to take any! I’m really slacking on my lookbook and Chictopia accounts now that I’m back in school and I need to step up my game right quick! But I was just too exhausted to take photos of my outfit I wore to work yesterday and I’ve acquired a nasty cold! That cold is sadly going to eat up my two days off I’m afraid which makes for a very boring ending to this post, which I apologize terribly for, but I do think I’ve hit ya’ll with enough blocks of text already anyways!

I hope everyone who is already back in school had a great first week and if you’re not back in school yet, I hope you’re enjoying your last few days of freedom!


[hello – 1.2.2011]

January 2, 2011 Comments Off on [hello – 1.2.2011]

So how does one decide to start a blog? Well for me it sort of just got to the point where it seemed like a natural decision. I started getting into using lookbook.nu and Chictopia again and with my impending weekly column for CollegeFashionista it just seemed like I should go ahead and bite the bullet. Plus… I think everyone who follows my tumblr was probably getting a little annoyed at how often I make personal posts. All of these reasons coupled with the fact that I’m going to be starting my first real internship the second week of January at SPACE|Evanston all boiled down to me deciding… it’s time to write again!

I’ll have a lot to write about for the first half of the year, what with 5 classes, an internship, a contributing position at CollegeFashionista, and my freelance opportunities with TimeOut Chicago. I’m especially excited about getting the opportunity to work at a venue, it’s something I’ve always wanted to do and being someone who didn’t go to Columbia and major in something music related I feel pretty accomplished about the fact that I got offered the position.

Most of the content of my blog will be revolving around fashion with a hefty side dish of music. But really the point of my blog is to chronicle what goes on around me and the struggle and efforts it takes to get to where you want to be, the typical trials of any college or university student who is trying to make their own mark on the world.

I look forward to being able to share my ups and downs and tricks of the trade with everyone, whether we’re acquainted or not! I’m looking forward to all of the wonders that 2011 can bring and hoping that it’s a good start to the rest of my life.

I know this is a painfully poor and short introduction, I promise to be more exciting and detailed from now on!

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